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Just Thought I'd put these lyrics in here.....



I hear the clock, it's six a.m.

I feel so far from where I've been

Got my eggs and my pancakes too

Got my maple syrup, everything but you.

Break the yolks, make a smiley face

I kinda like it in my brand new place

I wipe the spots off the mirror

Don't leave the keys in the door

Never put wet towels on the floor anymore' cause



Dreams last so long

even after you're gone

I know you love me

And soon you will see

You were meant for me

And I was meant for you.



Called my momma, she was out for a walk

Consoled a cup of coffee but it didn't wanna talk

Picked up a paper, it was more bad news

More hearts being broken or people being used

Put on my coat in the pouring rain

Saw a movie it just wasn't the same

'Cause it was happy and I was sad

It made me miss you oh so bad



Dreams last so long

Even after you're gone

I know you love me

And soon you will see

You were meant for me

And I was meant for you.



Go about my business, I'm doin fine

Besides, what would I say if U had you on the line

Same old story, not much to say

Hearts are broken, everyday.



Brush my teeth and put the cap back on

I know you hate it when I leave the light on

I pick a book up. Turn the sheets down.

Take a deep breath and a good look around

Put on my pj's and hop into bed

I'm half alive but I feel mostly dead

I try and tell myself it'll be all right

I just shouldn't think anymore tonight



Dreams last so long

Even after you're gone

I know you love me

And soon you will see

You were meant for me

And I was meant for you

Well here I go with a random journal entry cause I am bored..



Sometimes I get some good stuff out of these..Something philosophical..



I am listening to music aty the moment..It helps me write freely..Opens up my mind...Random songs ya know. Goes good with random thoughts...LOL



But yeah..I don't have much on my mind..Just that I have to find something to wear to go out tonight..I have no clue what to wear..I kind of want to wear a skirt but i think its still a tad to cold for that.



But who knows what will come of that..



" I don't want to touch you to much baby, cause making love to you might drive me crazy" That's good stuff right there..."Love bites, love bleeds, love bleeds love dies.." Just a few choice words from Def Leopard there..



My chick is bugging me through the texts messages..She thinks I know everything about everyone I talk to on the internet..I tell her I am talking to people she's like who..ANd Blah Blah Blah..I hate taht shit..It gets on my god damn nerves...It's like damnit doesnt matter just be happy I socialize. URRRRGGGGGGGG....



But anywho...I think I am going to do some pretty make-up on myslef tonight when I go out. I ahvent done anything complex in a while..Just simple stuff..But I don't know..I feel the need to be creative. I need to do that alot more...I miss doing that..I miss dancing all night cause I wanted to..I miss alot....



MAkes me think..BUt eh..All things pass..It all happens for a reason..But I know that soon my creativity and such will come back..I can already feel my wnat and need to dance rissing up inside me..._Passion I suppose is what it is about..I feel a lack of it most things these days...SOmethings I still have that burrning flame for but other things its like damn what happened to em..I feel as if I am not myself..I have let myself go...



I don't feel as pretty anymore..Like there is something missing. A piece of the puzzle that will not fit. I feel empty, not complete..I feel like a person that is not me..Not even a shell of what I once was..Where did it go and the time that took it...? Shall I find it again...



It's all up to me I guees to go on that journey to get it back. To go to that deep dark desert and find what I am again..Ask it why it has gone. Knowing it was my fault it left..I blew out that fire. I left it in the dust. BUt I shall find you my lost self. I promise...And we will dance...ANd dance and dance..We shall dance like a wave on the ocean romance...And joy will be had for the two of us as we join again into one form..A form that will make all happy..





A smile tht's what I need. I have lost mine in a way. A hug would be nice as well..Someone to tell me that it will all be ok..Something to turn up the heat..A candle lit meditation, a walk in the cemetarty..Blood would be nice..Oh how I long for some..It has been so long..Another reason I may not feel like me...Help I say Help...



Poetry is a good thing you know..Just a good one a good read..A written artform..A passion of mine..I have written a bit latley but not to much butit is better than nothing..I have a piece in the works..I am going to make some art to go with it...



At times I feel like running far from everything..Just for time to myself..I have not had that in month..I love to have time for me..But I lack it..Yet another cause for my lost self..I havent had time for me...Poor Donavan...I miss my bubble baths..*SIGH*..But soon I hope I can have that time for me..A time to light the incense and candles and relax..Become one with who I am and what I wnat to be and what I should be..One with all that is around me...One with the souls that linger in the air...



I don't have much else to say I suppose..I am sure I have carried on a bit here..Mostly talking about my self woes..That noone really wants to hear about...